Creative

I need to start doing something new with my life. I should not just focus on my work and family. I need to explore the world. Alamak!!! How to?? I've been doing the same thing since forever. I wake up, go to school now work, come back, eat and sleep. I've been doing it for the last 25 years of my life. I feel like a robot. Gila la..macam mana ni. Lately, I feel that my life doesn't have any value. I don't feel like my existence in this world lead to nothing. I need to be creative. Haish, tu yang susah tu.

I remembered when I was little, there always a lot of things to do. I was engaged with many things such as my taekwando class, badminton training and lots of things. But now, nak keluar rumah pun macam susah. Haish. When talking about being creative, I always wanted to do something creatively. But to be honest, I am not creative. I can't draw, I can't write creatively or play any music. I used to be in a choir group. But that one is past memory. I have a very creative family. My mum and dad are creative. Their art works are to die for. My brothers and little sister are creative. They are a good writer, painter and even a good musician though they didn't pursue it professionally. But when it comes to me..I have na-da..Nothing. If I try to draw a tree, it would turn out to be something else. I have an acoustic guitar, a gift from my dad. But it has been sitting in the cupboard waiting to be played. Last year, I thought of enrolling myself to a guitar class. Sampai sekarang tak enroll lagi.

I realised that my work has started to take chunk of my time. And the impact is major on my life (I've been losing and gaining weight for the past 3 months...GILA!!!). I have been distancing myself with my friends coz I don't have the time to go out. All I want to do is sleep all day long. Hurm maybe I should start doing something new. Maybe I should enroll myself for Guitar lesson or maybe dancing (ehem...badan dah macam kayu ada hati plak)..

2011 is getting closer and I really need to think of something creative to do...I am open to any suggestion coz I really need to do this thing badly to keep my sanity intact. Tolonglah!!!