Office Politic

I've been a banker for 2 years, 3 months and 26 days. I joined my current organisation right after I graduated since I was their scholarship holder (by hook or by crook, I have to join them). I have been dreaming of joining this organisation since I was a little girl where I used to follow my dad, who also work in the same place (but don't get me wrong, I didn't get to join the organisation due to cronyism. Tak mainla kroni2..belajar pandai2 sudah). Though I was bonded for four years, I didn't view it as a death penalty as other scholars may think coz I really want to work there.

I was lucky that when I joined the organisation, my department is among the most important department in the organisation. I kept thinking to myself that this department will help me grow. The environment was so good where everyone who is anyone willing to help each other especially when they are new. This is important since working in a financial industry, you will need all the help that you can get. And this is especially important when you are just a young graduate coz you need people in the industry to take you seriously. I've been to a meeting with the industry where not a single person listen to what I have to say. They just prefer me to keep quiet and act all dolled-up. Over time, people have started to see me beyond my age and my face. They have started to listen to what I want to say.

However, life is not all nice and sunny as a banker. Especially since there are few changes in my department's structure, currently. The office politic is getting intense that you can cut the intensity with a knife. Sometimes it does bring me down especially when your work is not credited to you but to some other guy who sits in front of the PC all day long and Google Talking with his friends or busy playing with his Iphone 4 and Blackberry Torch that he just bought. This kind of people can even get away with murder coz they know how to sweet talk to their bosses without having to move their arse off the comfy chair. And for you, who have been doing all the work from 8 am to 8pm. The credit will never be given to you coz you are not the type who is going to go and suck-up to you boss. And coz you believe in doing the work with all your heart.

And the guy who didn't do anything always got the perks. For this guy, I wish you..Go to HELL!!! The time will come when everyone will know what you have done. Don't treat others as if they are stupid or they are you slave, coz believe me when I say that people start to realise your true colour. The clock is ticking, my friend..hehehe

Unifi...where art thou?

I received a called from TMnet on 23 October 2010 to convert my Streamyx account to Unifi. Ok, just to refresh everyone's mind, 23 October falls on Saturday and they called me at 6.30 p.m. Hahaha I was shocked when they told me they are from TMnet, coz I didn't even know that they do marketing on Saturday. Maybe sudah efficient sekarang...hehehe.. At that time I was packing my bag coz I have 1 week conference to attend. To cut the story short, they make an appointment to come at about 8p.m for me to fill up a form and for them to explain to me. Everything is settled within half an hour.

Fast forward to 1 month and 5 days letter, I am still using my Streamyx account and I didn't get the slightest idea of what has happened to my Unifi registration. Did I make any call to TMnet to ask about this? Hell yeah, I did. I called them twice but they said its the vendor that I supposed to be contacting. Try to called the vendor numerous time but end up in the mail-box. I dunno what have they done with the form that I filled. Maybe they used it as nasi-lemak wrapper. Who knows??

I'm still interested in using Unifi. Now all I need is to get a trusted vendor to help me to register or maybe de-register if I need to. Am so sick and tired of waiting for TMnet to response or continue to say that this is the vendor's fault. Yeah I get it, I registered through the vendor but you (TMnet) as the owner of the system should monitor your vendor coz their lack of efficiency is giving you the bad name, not that you don't already have one. I guess this is what consumer in Malaysia have to face on a daily basis. A crappy service from the either from the government or private organisation. And as a customer, we have to put a stop at this. But I just wonder how?

Creative

I need to start doing something new with my life. I should not just focus on my work and family. I need to explore the world. Alamak!!! How to?? I've been doing the same thing since forever. I wake up, go to school now work, come back, eat and sleep. I've been doing it for the last 25 years of my life. I feel like a robot. Gila la..macam mana ni. Lately, I feel that my life doesn't have any value. I don't feel like my existence in this world lead to nothing. I need to be creative. Haish, tu yang susah tu.

I remembered when I was little, there always a lot of things to do. I was engaged with many things such as my taekwando class, badminton training and lots of things. But now, nak keluar rumah pun macam susah. Haish. When talking about being creative, I always wanted to do something creatively. But to be honest, I am not creative. I can't draw, I can't write creatively or play any music. I used to be in a choir group. But that one is past memory. I have a very creative family. My mum and dad are creative. Their art works are to die for. My brothers and little sister are creative. They are a good writer, painter and even a good musician though they didn't pursue it professionally. But when it comes to me..I have na-da..Nothing. If I try to draw a tree, it would turn out to be something else. I have an acoustic guitar, a gift from my dad. But it has been sitting in the cupboard waiting to be played. Last year, I thought of enrolling myself to a guitar class. Sampai sekarang tak enroll lagi.

I realised that my work has started to take chunk of my time. And the impact is major on my life (I've been losing and gaining weight for the past 3 months...GILA!!!). I have been distancing myself with my friends coz I don't have the time to go out. All I want to do is sleep all day long. Hurm maybe I should start doing something new. Maybe I should enroll myself for Guitar lesson or maybe dancing (ehem...badan dah macam kayu ada hati plak)..

2011 is getting closer and I really need to think of something creative to do...I am open to any suggestion coz I really need to do this thing badly to keep my sanity intact. Tolonglah!!!