Practising self control

A month ago, I fell down and hurt myself (Internal bleeding in my stomach). Due to that reason I was given medication and my physician told me that I need to detox my system in order for the medicine to be working.She said that my body contains a lot of toxin and I need to get rid that off.

I have tried different kind of detoxification. Diet, fruit juice, apple cider vinegar...You name it and I've tried all that. I know without proper detoxification it won't work. Why detoxification wouldn't work on me?? The problem lies in my food consumption. I love to eat.

I eat almost everything I can see. I even had few food allergies since baby but it does not stop me from eating the food that causes my allergic reaction.I can't eat all kinds of dairy products. I get rashes, few swollen muscle and fever. But I am a meat eater (Hehehe not a man eater).. Though I do realise the consequences, I just can't help myself. I like challenges and for me eating the stuff I'm allergic to is a part of the challenge.

Ok back to my detoxification. I started my detoxification process on 14 July 2010. With determination that I can last this process for a week. And the very same day, I was reading the newspaper. There it is, in the front page an advertisement on the McDonald GCB. I'm not a big McD fan but the idea of having grilled-burger sound tempting to me. So there goes my first day of detox down the drain. Damn you Ronald!!

Part of the reason why I can't continue to stay in the detox program is Coca Cola. I am a Coke addict. I cannot function a day without at least a can of Coke. It started in the uni days where the vending machine is 15 steps away from my room in uni. I will waste my scholarship (not to forget my PAMA's) to buy can after can of Coke. I even had a friend said "Nasib baikla awak ni scholars xxx, mampu la nak beli Coke bertin-tin sehari"...hehehe..RM1.2O jer pun...Luckily due to my active schedule (read: hyperactive), the Coke never give much problems to my figure..hehehe sometimes adalah gak but I blame my food intake. I eat like a Hantu Raya :P

I tried practise self control. I have even tried to live without Coke or protein for few days (hehehe try nak jadi vegan). However, the red can and the smell of cooked meat always win. Without them my life won't be complete and I would act like a zombie. I was supposed to undergo another detox process again due to tonsil infection last week. The last Coke stats that I checked, I have managed to drink at least 5 bottles of 1.5 litre Coke. hehehe guess I failed again.

I was hoping that bulan Ramadhan will enable me to complete my detoxification process. Hahaha padahal bulan puasa la paling banyak nak crave pun...Adooyai...macam mana ni...My physician won't prescribe any medication until I complete my detox coz she thought it would be useless. My life without medication is like living in a sewer full of bacteria and virus..Haish!!