Monologue of lost soul

I think I'm overstress..Yes its because of my work..Though I had sign my life away with the devil when I accepted the position, I never knew that it would turn out to be this way..Trying to be positive and looking for all the good things in life but the stress are so powerful that sometimes I forget how to enjoy life. I forget what is like to go out and have fun. I can't even remember when my last holiday is and how does it feel. Sound pathetic, do I?

Gonna be 25 in few days. I was hoping (or more like praying) that something wonderful would happen to me. But I don't really believed in magic coz I know magic doesn't exist. I need all the energy I can get to stay awake and positive. I'm fully drained and had lost my way. I need guidance but there is no where to look for.

I am looking for the light at the end of the tunnel...Will there be a light when I reached there??
I look up and try looking for the silver lining in the sky, but I couldn't see any. Have I been blinded by the bright light?