Myself or Somebody Else

I've celebrated my birthday 3 days ago...The day I turned into a quarter of century. Hahaha I like to use that phrase instead of telling people that I'm turning 25 (nampak macam gempak). Though I didn't get to celebrate my birthday (balik keje nearly at 1 a.m a day before and going back to work at 7 a.m) but my colleagues at the office is trying to cheer me up with buying me cake and singing their lungs out..Seriously, I think they need to stick with their daily job..hehehe I still love you guys though my eardrums suffered some trouble because of the singing. There are also adorable gifts from my twins and manager. But I cannot stop myself from laughing when I think about it.

My twin, Che Nun decided to give me books about cat coz she knew that I am a cat lover. One book in particular is a book about cats and wigs. She tell me to take some pointer of how to be a lady from a cat... But the best gift I get is from my manager, she decided to give me a lipgloss from Dior collection.FYI, I did not wear any lipstick or lipgloss. I feel that I look like a pig if I wear lipstick (quoting Joe Biden's sarcastic remarks to Sarah Palin). There was a hidden message behind the lipstick. It was with intention for me to start acting like a girl...Cess

I always know since I was in school that I am not the typical girlie girl who likes to wear make up. In fact I started to wear heels and mascara when I start working (takkan nak gi meeting muka macam mak lampir??). I know that I can be harsh sometimes, be it physical or with word. I can punch harder than any guy next to me. However, over time I try to portray myself as an independent girl but not too girlie (I tak kuasa nyah nak lembik-lembik ni..Penat!). I still remember one advice given by my bestfriend. She said "If you want a boy to like you, then you have to be girlish and dependent to them. Guys don't like tough chick". Huh! Biar betul?? But come to think of it,I do think what she told me is true.

Though I appreciate advice and gestures by all my friends, I can't be a girl that they wanted me to be. Susah ar nak jalan control pastuh nak cakap slow-slow. I'm not Paris Hilton and I can't act dumb though sometimes I do wish that I can be a bimbo...Hakhak ada gak orang buat wish macam tu...I stand guided in what I believed in and I prefer being me than being somebody else. I don't give a damn if I don't attract any guys rather than I have to fake myself to be miss girlie-girlie..Tak rela mak!!